"Intellectually I know that it's not my fault. I didn't know anything was wrong. I would've acted differently if I did." You know, like he has here, making everything about Viktor. It started to turn that way in Piltover too, although he had more things on his shoulders to distract him. Nothing seemed possible to juggle. If he focused on one thing, the other would fall, and vice versa. It was an unwinnable situation. Jayce doesn't actually miss that part of his life. In a lot of ways he's glad to be here, far separated from it, able to focus on what matters to him on a personal level.

"I was making a difference. I've learned medicine and healing for him, and it was working. He was doing better." Viktor would argue that it was more pain management other than an actual fix, but Jayce feels otherwise, he just needs a little more time to prove his theory. It isn't a cure, but it is more than pain management, he knows that much. Except this threw a huge wrench into the plan. "He's so mad at me he'd rather suffer than let me help right now."

Viktor lives with his pain all the time, every day, so it's probably not hard for him to go backward and accept the life he's known over dealing with Jayce and their falling out. But it's still difficult for Jayce who finally felt like he was doing good, that everything he'd been focusing on was paying off for them. He sighs and leans back in the chair, rubbing a hand across his eyes.

"I'm a fixer. I don't know what to do when there's no way for me to fix what went wrong. So I just feel useless and pointless."