Nadine wonders if, maybe, enough people tell her she's a good person, she might be able to accept it.
But she thinks there's a very big difference between nice and good. She's a nice person. Good...well, who knows?
"Sometimes good people make mistakes." That much is true. A single mistake can't be enough to tarnish someone's soul forever. Everyone screws up or makes a wrong call or gets in over their head at some point. It's what they do next that matters. If they change, or just keep going the same way.
"It's part of being a person. Doing something bad doesn't make a person bad. Just like doing a good thing doesn't make a person good. We're the sum total of our actions, not a single one."
"Even when we were fighting, Viktor said he still believed I was a good person who made mistakes. He's just not sure if this is one he can forgive me for." Jayce was so desperate for Viktor not to think he was bad, but at the same time, it was hard for him not to think the same of himself. He's always harder on himself than other people.
"He's mostly mad I didn't tell him. I avoided talking about it entirely until he had to press me for answers." Jayce knows that was the real problem. Maybe if he had expressed it and explained himself, Viktor would have been crushed but not furious at him. "I told myself I would do it eventually, I'd find the right words, but I'm not sure anymore that I would have." It was easier to let them be as they were before, close and working hard together. It's difficult to admit this because Jayce hasn't really, that he might have never admitted to it himself.
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But she thinks there's a very big difference between nice and good. She's a nice person. Good...well, who knows?
"Sometimes good people make mistakes." That much is true. A single mistake can't be enough to tarnish someone's soul forever. Everyone screws up or makes a wrong call or gets in over their head at some point. It's what they do next that matters. If they change, or just keep going the same way.
"It's part of being a person. Doing something bad doesn't make a person bad. Just like doing a good thing doesn't make a person good. We're the sum total of our actions, not a single one."
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"He's mostly mad I didn't tell him. I avoided talking about it entirely until he had to press me for answers." Jayce knows that was the real problem. Maybe if he had expressed it and explained himself, Viktor would have been crushed but not furious at him. "I told myself I would do it eventually, I'd find the right words, but I'm not sure anymore that I would have." It was easier to let them be as they were before, close and working hard together. It's difficult to admit this because Jayce hasn't really, that he might have never admitted to it himself.